Motherhood

Paying Homage To My Former Infertile Self

Have you ever looked back on a really tough time in your life and wonder how the heck you pulled yourself through?  It’s like the picture of the kitten who stares at the mirror and sees a lion reflecting back at him – but in reverse.  On the basic day to day dealings of life, […] Read more…

How I Became Infertile

I took a year hiatus from my blog and I’ve come back infertile.  My, my, my how things change so quickly.  To catch you up to speed on how I went from being a “trying to conceive drop out” to a “trying to conceive infertile”, I’ll have to go back to November/December of 2012.  This […] Read more…

Trying To Conceive Drop Out

Scratch all damn plans.  This is just too much.  My conflicted trying to conceive brain just can’t handle the pressure.  There is a huge difference between planning in your mind {or on a blog} and actually carrying out the plan in action.  They say if you can’t handle the heat, then get out the kitchen.  […] Read more…

New Cycle, New Plan

And so the saga continues.  Aunt flo made a visit to town last week.   I finally understand how other women feel when they stress out over pregnancy symptoms and question every twinge or discomfort.  Any trace of indigestion now seems like pregnancy related heartburn.  Simple cramps?  Oh it must be the implantation process.  And […] Read more…

Dreaded Two Week Wait

Hey there!  Quite a bit of time has lapsed since my last post.  I’d be lying if I said I have been okay.  It’s actually been quite the roller coaster ride in terms of emotions.  My would-be due date is this coming Sunday.  It’s also the day of my 2-year wedding anniversary {what are the […] Read more…

Pregnancy Loss Expressed Through Art

This post is not meant to be sad.  In fact I’m feeling pretty good these days.  I just wanted to share two pictures that I feel are really beautiful and have summed up how it feels to lose a pregnancy.  I’ve already been touched by songs that have expressed how I’ve felt like Rihanna’s “We […] Read more…

Cherishing Good News

It’s been a little while since my last post.  Interesting story though, in my last post I mentioned getting my period and thinking the ectopic pregnancy was really over.  Well in true form to my crazy life, I went to the doctor later that same week and my hcG numbers were at 49.  I couldn’t […] Read more…

Ectopic Pregnancy Update: It’s Really Over

The last few days I have been extremely hormonal.  I haven’t just been borderline bitchy- I’ve been doing a rain dance all along the territory lines of Bitch Land.  I am just better left alone and really all I want is solitude.  I had been feeling cramps on and off last week, and all weekend […] Read more…

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